We had our second exam in Math today and it was difficult. The first exam was easier. We were given 2 hours and 30 minutes to take the exam. I was able to finish it. I did not skip any item unlike what I did in my past Math exams ( this does not include my first exam taken this summer). I'm just not sure if my answers are correct. I just want to pass this time. Actually, I want to get a good grade, a grade higher than 3. I have no excuse to fail this time because I only have one subject. And besides, I've been doing what a student should be doing. I am studying my lessons and I listen to the prof. I even used my own money to pay for my tuition this time because I want to show my folks how serious and determined I am to do better. I don't want them to be disappointed. Maybe I'm worrying too much. You can't blame me. I have no idea how I'm doing in Math because our prof is not done checking our first exam yet. I listened to the radio last night and I heard that Hanson was doing an interview today in the Early Returns program. Since I'd still be on my way home during the program, I decided to ask my sister to record it for me instead so that I could listen to it when I get home. So, everything was set. My sister tuned in to the program from 4:50-6:10 and there was no interview. Great! Ok. I won't deny it. I am still interested in Hanson but it's not the same as my Grade School days. Although, I have to admit that Taylor still looks good. I mean, he doesn't look like he's a dad.

Yesterday was Mother's Day and so we went out. However, unlike our usual trips, this wasn't planned. I only or should I say we (the kids) only learned about it the night before. My mom told us that we were going to Caylabne Bay, a resort in Cavite. So that means swimming. And swimming means removing my leg hair. Of course I would have to do that. I'll be exposing my legs with my swim suit. So what did I do? I used my depilatory cream for removing my leg hair. The problem is you test the cream first on a small portion of your skin and wait for 24 hours before re-applying it even if you have used it before because you might just get allergies. I was not able to do a test anymore because I was only given short notice of our trip and so what happened? At first, my legs were ok. Then, I saw two strands of hair left on my right leg. I re-applied the cream. That's when it started to hurt. So, I immediately rubbed it with my wet damp cloth and dressed up. When we got to the place, my right leg had red spots. And it was stinging. I was so worried. What if those spots stay there permanently? What will I do? My mom would never allow me to remove my leg hair again if she finds out what happened. And of course I will still need to remove my leg hair under certain circumstances. So, what's the lesson of the story? 1. Always follow instructions. 2. Learn to accept yourself by not having to worry about what other people will say about you. In my case, that means not getting rid of my leg hair. I can do number 1. I'm not sure about number 2. I mean, it's not that I don't love myself. But what can I do? I'm a hairy 18 year old who like a lot of girls is a victim of a society that sets a standard on how girls or even women should look like. I just don't want to be teased like those girls I read in a teen magazine.

No classes tomorrow. We are suppose to take our third exam tomorrow, but our prof won't be able to make it tomorrow so it was moved to Monday. Alright! That means I can go out with Vero and Christel tomorrow. I talked to them today about our plans for tomorrow. I don't want to be late this time. I have this bad feeling all my friends are getting the impression that I don't really care about them because I'm late most of the time and I don't reply to their text messages right away. Mind you, I do not do this on purpose. It just happens. What a lame excuse, one might think. A friend of mine once said that it's not nice to make people wait for you. I know that but sometimes it really isn't my fault. I can't commute all the time. I'm dependent on my father for a ride when I go out and so I have no choice but to bear with his schedule. On the late replies, I am busy with other things or I am out of load. But that does not mean I purposely ignore the text messages I receive. I try to reply whenever I can. There's a saying that goes:"If there's a will, there's a way." In Filipino, "Kung gusto maraming paraan, kung ayaw maraming dahilan." This may be true for some cases but not for mine. There are times when I want to be on time, but I just can't because I am out of choice.

I got 500 bucks today without even doing anything. It's from my lola. She just came from Israel and since she has not seen us for quite a long time, she gave everyone 10 dollars each. This is a big deal for me because I'm broke on account of deciding to pay for my tuition this summer, which isn't exactly a big amount. P1,052? I mean, what is that compared to my other friends' tuition fees? My point is, I just want to have money once in a while for my wants. I don't feel so good about asking money from my folks all the time especially for stuff I don't really need. For some reason, it's just great to know that I'm the cheapest kid in the family as far as education is concerned.

My right leg is getting better. The red spots are all gone. I was worried that it would leave scars but now, all I see is hair. My concern now is whether or not I should remove my leg hair again because Belle is having a pool-side party on Wednesday. I asked Vero if she was going to swim and she said she wasn't sure. I guess I better be prepared too. The hair removing incident I just had a few weeks ago just scares me. What if this time, I find out my skin is all of a sudden allergic to my depilatory cream? How will I get rid of my leg hair? Shave it? No. I might get cuts, which is likely and my hair would be coarse when they grow back. How about waxing? Well, I don't have the money for it and I don't think I'd be able to handle the pain that goes with it. So, I guess I'll just do a test first and wait for the results. I'll think about what I'll do next after that. Enough about my leg hair. My lolo was rushed to the hospital today, but he's ok now. Hanson's coming on the 11th of June. I heard it on the radio. I want to see them. They were suppose to visit Manila in the year 2000 but it was cancelled so I wasn't able to see them. I guess now's my chance.

We finally got to see Troy yesterday. The plan was we'd meet at Christel's place, catch American Idol on ABC 5, watch Troy then proceed to Belle's party. All three of us (Vero, Christel and I) decided we won't swim anymore so there was no need for hair removing. Finally, we were able to watch Troy because I wasn't late this time. I liked the film. It's the type that you have to see in the movie theater and not wait for a DVD copy because of it's great effects. After watching Troy, we went to some shops in search for things we can use for school. I saw 2 nice shirts, 1 from Penshoppe and 1 from Bench. I didn't buy them though because if I did, I wouldn't have money left. We went to Belle's birthday afterwards and it was fun. Only a few people came and Belle's mom felt a bit disappointed because a lot of people confirmed their attendance. We gave Belle a watch. I offered to demonstrate how it should be worn when she finally opened it, since it was the type which had a long strap. I told her that it should be worn as a choker and of course she didn't believe me. I just got a message from Rhea. It's her prom today. She's coming here in July and I can't wait to see her.