Entries for July, 2004

I'm thinking of a lot of things at the moment. I've been busy with school and well, a lot of things have been happening too. So, what's on my mind? Here they are. 1. My safety. A UPM student was stabbed to death last week when he refused to give in to the demands of the hold upper. And since I ride public transportation, there is a possibility that this could happen to me too. 2. My acads. I'm doing ok so far. However, I am worried about Math because I learned form Anna today that the first exam would be on the 16th. Their class is done with the coverage of the first exam. Good for them. As for my class, we've only had two meetings so far, so that means we're still stuck with Functions, Lines and Ellipse. The discussion of these topics weren't even good because our professor was sleepy while doing the lecture and she kept on asking us questions to know if what she was doing and what she wrote on the board was correct. Most of the time, it wasn't. Is she a Rose in the making? Oh please!!! 3. My bestfriends Rhea and Mika. I have not seen them for a loooong time. Rhea is suppose to visit the country this month but she has to take summer classes for college. As for Mika, I don't know. I have not heard from her for soooo long. I do hope I get to see her on my birthday. 4. I need to matterload. 5. Four. I don't know why I'm thinking of this person. It's weird. I can't even explain it.
Currently listening to: Deep Blue Something's Breakfast at Tiffany's
Posted by Louie on July 3, 2004 at 01:31 AM | 7 comments
I chose Philippine Games as my PE this semester because I think it would be fun and would not require any athletic skills which I apparently don't have. I guess I was wrong about the latter part of my statement. The thing is we had tag games today. We played "Aswang-Aswang" and since I was tagged at one point of the game, I became it. I had to tag someone of course but it was hard because my classmates were in a circle I cannot enter. I swear, it took like ten years before I was able to tag someone. I tried to move as quickly as I can but my classmates just move much faster. While I was it, my classmates who were still in the circle kept saying that one of them should stay on the point of the circle where I could easily reach anyone so that I will no longer be it. I am such a loser. After that we played Message Relay which didn't require me to run so I guess I enjoyed that. But during the last game, I didn't help my teammates at all. The last game was Agawan Base and since I can't run as fast as my classmates can, I decided to just stay in our base because if I run and have our opponents chase me, they would be able to tag me which would make my team lose and I don't want that of course. Am I even making sense here? I guess all I want to say is that I do not like chasing people and being chased. It's tiring and it makes me sweat which gives me a yucky feeling of course. But considering the other types of games which are skill, guessing and relay, I still think Philippine Games are fun.
Posted by Louie on July 10, 2004 at 12:34 AM | 4 comments
I think I may have ulcer. Well, that's what I think. I'm not sure. I have not been eating right these past few days. Instead of having breakfast, lunch and dinner in a day, I only get to eat twice a day, brunch and dinner. I am always in a hurry in the morning and have no time to eat my breakfast. I often feel my tummy aching. What's worst is I am also losing my appetite. I don't eat as much as I used to do. Why this is happening, I have no clue. I only weigh 93 lbs. According to our family doctor, I am underweight. With the loss of appetite and ulcer(?), what could happen to me? I don't want to lose weight. I don't want to look like that oh-so-skinny anorexic girl in the Christina Aguilera video of Beautiful. I don't want to gain a lot of pounds either. All I want is to be a healthy kid.
Currently listening to: Ashley Simpson's Pieces of Me
Currently feeling: worried
Posted by Louie on July 21, 2004 at 06:09 PM | 3 comments
Is there really peace in silence? Isn't there more suffering in silence because you keep what it is you feel to yourself? Either way, you suffer because in silence nobody else knows about what's going on with you except...you. While when you choose to speak up, you still suffer because there is the fear of being rejected and being hurt. But then again, what's so bad about keeping what you feel only to yourself? Then you would be free to feel what you want to feel and even think what you what to think because nobody else knows but you. Nobody will tell you that it's right or wrong. And it wouldn't hurt anyone. Maybe it would. It would hurt you, but it wouldn't hurt that much because you have already pre-empted that the moment you chose to be in silence. On the other hand, if you choose to speak up, it will actually make you feel better. However, the things that may come after that may be difficult to accept. It's not just the idea of being rejected but also the changes that will definitely take place. What changes? So, can I be more concrete? Why am I writing this anyway? Does it even matter? 6 words. I choose to remain in silence.
Currently reading: Apo Chua's Linangan
Currently feeling: indescribable
Posted by Louie on July 26, 2004 at 01:35 PM | 4 comments
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