Entries for February, 2006

I thought last year was my last chance. I sure made good use of the exposure effect, making sure I was in the right place at the right time i.e. being in the same place where yoU could be found. My efforts didn't pay off though. But when summer came, I started to become hopeful because once again, I was given a chance with yoU, so I came up with a plan. Actually, I didn't just have a plan. I had plans with what to do with yoU. None of these materialized though because all of these were just not feasible. I just couldn't do any of them. And so I thought that was the end of it. The first semester of junior year came and yoU were gone. But now yoU're back and I'm convinced there isn't going to be a next time. If I want to do something, I must do it now. But how can I do something? Coming up with a strategy is not at all difficult. It is the part when I have to do it which is problematic. I just can't do it. Not when I can't even look at yoU straight in the eye. Not when yoU're with yoUr friends whom I think can actually read my mind. Why are yoU such a big deal anyway?

I didn't like You that much before. All that has changed now though. I look forward to each day I'll get to see You even if I despise the idea of me liking You. And I still despise it now that I'm learning more things about You. Anyhow, I still want to see You...

Currently listening to: The Suffering-Coheed and Cambria
Currently feeling: emo
Posted by Louie on February 22, 2006 at 02:12 AM | 1 comments
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