Louie

I submitted the first draft of my thesis yesterday. I know should be celebrating like the others who are done with their thesis because that's the normal thing any person who has just accomplished a tedious task would do. Come to think of it, after the first draft, there isn't really much to do, only minor revisions. I am not in the mood to celebrate though because I don't have the right to. I still have a lot to do to at least make my thesis worthy of being called a thesis. I swear, the stuff I submitted yesterday was trash. Ok. Maybe not the entire thing. Only the last portions. But the the point is, I am not satisfied with it because I know that the paper could have been better if only I made good use of my time.

So why exactly am I stressing myself over some first draft? After all, the first draft is a first draft. It can still be improved. It isn't that I am aiming for the Best Thesis award. I guess, I just want to be able to come up with an output that is relevant and worthy of reading. I just want an output that can perhaps create change if not contribute to dealing with the problem/s in the status quo. After all, researches are not conducted so that students will be able to submit something to their professors to serve as proof that they did learn something in their 4 years of college. More than that, it should be able to contribute to society. It would be a total waste of effort if it would just be a dusty publication on the shelf.

I know I still have time left to fix my thesis and even my other academic work which had been put off because I had been too complacent. I intend to get everything done and be satisfied with the outcome at the end of the day. I just need to be focused and to keep reminding myself.