July 26, 2004
In Silence
Is there really peace in silence? Isn't there more suffering in silence because you keep what it is you feel to yourself? Either way, you suffer because in silence nobody else knows about what's going on with you except...you. While when you choose to speak up, you still suffer because there is the fear of being rejected and being hurt. But then again, what's so bad about keeping what you feel only to yourself? Then you would be free to feel what you want to feel and even think what you what to think because nobody else knows but you. Nobody will tell you that it's right or wrong. And it wouldn't hurt anyone. Maybe it would. It would hurt you, but it wouldn't hurt that much because you have already pre-empted that the moment you chose to be in silence. On the other hand, if you choose to speak up, it will actually make you feel better. However, the things that may come after that may be difficult to accept. It's not just the idea of being rejected but also the changes that will definitely take place. What changes? So, can I be more concrete? Why am I writing this anyway? Does it even matter? 6 words. I choose to remain in silence.

Posted by Louie on July 26, 2004 at 01:35 PM | 4 comments
ma_veronica

aira

hazie
Aphelion

contemplating...
surpressing emotions...
death to expression...
blood to pain...
life to anger...
i dwell in silence
and futility is my guard...