Louie

There is something I want to do before summer classes end. I've got a problem though. I still don't know how I am going to do it. And even if I do come up with something, I still might not be able to do it. What's stopping me I guess is what happened last week when I saw yoUr friends and they were all smiling at me like they knew me or that they knew about my plan. Or maybe I'm just paranoid. But what can I do? Everyone is telling me to go for it. And I also think I should move forward because I don't want to blame myself for not doing anything in the end.

Eight days. That is my deadline. I want to do it. But do yoU want me to do it?

Louie

I should be asleep now because I still have to do something important tommorow.But I just can't sleep. A lot of things are bothering me right now. Apart from my deadline which now leaves me with just three more days, I have even more pressing concerns. Our second exam is on Monday and the time I have to prepare for it is very little because I have to debate. Our final exam is scheduled on the 23rd, which I would not be able to take because I'll be leaving on the 22nd. I talked to my prof and he gave me the option of either taking it earlier which  is on Wednesday next week or not taking it but getting an INC in my class card. INC stands for incomplete and in order to get a grade for the subject, I will hve to take an exam. When? I have no idea. I have one year to complete the requirements and it all depends on when the prof will be available. The thing is, this prof is not always around so not taking the exam would be a risk. Our last week for training is next week and I sure want to utilize it. I just can't decide on what I should do.

I'm stressed and it shows. I actually think I'm starting to look really ugly and wasted because I have blemishes on my face inspite of my regular facial rituals.

I have not done anything about the thing I want to accomplish this summer. I wish I had super powers. I wish I could control time in order for me to do everthing.

Louie

"Excuse me. PT ka diba? Classmate mo ba si Angela?"

I could have started with that. But I didn't.

YoU were alone and that was just the right time to do it. But what did I do?

I took a sip of water.  I got my Math stuff. And then, that was it.

I did not do anything.

I just couldn't.