Louie

I got back from Dumaguete last week. I wasn't really able to look around. I wasn't even able to buy a bracelet or anything. We only stayed there for 5 days and we were preoccupied with debate-related matters most of the time. But that's ok. Our contingent did well in the NDC. All the adjudicators and 6 out of 7 teams made it to the break. And that includes my team.  My team was capped though. To be capped means making it to the break but not debating in the octofinals because there is a quota for the number of teams that can debate in the octofinals from every institution.  But I'm ok with it. 2 teams from our institution made it to the finals.  I'm really proud of them, particularly to UPM B because they were my teammates in the AUDC. We didn't win but I know we'll get there. Oh. And I got to debate with my crush Elf Boy.  I was in luck. I'm not so sure though if I should be happy about it knowing that he's gay. But then again it's just a crush so I guess it doesn't really matter.

I got my StuDENT'S PERMIT today. I don't have it right now though. I left it at the place where my dad, brother and I were dining after procuring the license. I only realized that the envelop in which I inserted it was not with me was when we were already in Tandang Sora. I left the license in Marikina. Markina isn't exactly far from Tandang Sora but going back means having to endure traffic. And my dad  wasn't up for it. Good thing my dad's friend works near the place where I left my license and so, my dad asked his friend to just get my license. He was able to get my license and my dad's taking it home tomorrow. Wow. I'm in luck.

Louie

"Grades are not everything." This is a line from a student's speech delivered in my Speech class in High School. According to Vero's entry, grades do not exactly determine a person's intellectual capacity. And I agree. Just because a person gets good grades does not mean he or she is really, really smart. But it doesn't mean too that the grades are not worth anything. Of course those things are worth something. Students need them in order to graduate and get jobs in the future, stuff like that. And I think good grades are supposed to make students feel great about themselves too. You know, the kind of feeling that you've accomplished something and have given it your best. And your parents would even give you a reward for a job well done.

Back in High School, my only concern in life was to get good grades or be an honor student. I would sleep late just to finish my truckloads of homework. When it comes to projects, I wouldn't just submit for the sake of submitting something. I always worked hard on everything in school. There were even times when my classmates (and even friends) and I would have a fight because they think I'm too bossy when it comes to groupworks. There were even times when I would cry (Yes. I cry too.) because I failed an exam or can't submit a group project on time for weird reasons like a groupmate did not do her part etc.  I was working my ass but I was never an honor student. There was always that one problematic subject. I just wasn't very artistic so Mr.Ganancial kept on giving me a B- in THE. I also got a C in Music in one quarter when I could have been first honor, which I still don't understand until now. My homeroom adviser even asked me if I knew how to sing. In that one time I didn't have a problematic subject, I got a B in Conduct because I was tardy for several times. But that didn't discourage me. Grades after all are not everything. And besides, things could be different in college.

And things are different now in college. I'm still studying but that is not the only thing I'm concerned with. And yeah, I got good grades last semester. If I were stil in High School, it would be like being first honor, something like that. But it doesn't feel like it. It just seems like nothing happened. I don't feel great about myself. Even my parents were indifferent when I showed them my classcards. They haven't even given me a reward. Not that I'm asking for one. It just feels weird. How can it seem so ordinary when I've been wanting it for the longest time?

Perhaps people are never really satisfied. They just keep on wanting more and more. But is there really anything wrong with that? What's the point of living if we won't be working to achieve anything in our life? How can we improve as individuals if we don't have aspirations? But then again, what is the point of working hard for something if we will get tired of it anyway and not want it anymore once it is right infront of us? Isn't it just a waste of time? Or maybe life is just like that. We can never really attain what we desire. Anyhow, we keep on fooling ourselves.