Louie

I'm a punk. Let me qualify that. I'm not a hooligan but I am young and unemployed and so, I am a punk.

It wasn't exactly a choice I made. Again, I have to qualify this. How long have I been like this? 8 months now. I have been looking for work and applying to different companies since the latter part of July and until now, I am still stuck at home. Last October I was already accepted for the position of HR Assistant in a bank which I refused because I felt the remuneration was not fair. It would only cover my transportation expenses and cellphone bill. I am not exactly raising a family nor am I after a very huge amount. I have no work experience but at least I would like an amount that would enable me to save up for the future.

So, 8 months it has been and some of my college classmates are not convinced that I am actually looking for work.  I can't blame them nor am I taking it against them. Most of my classmates were hired right away. I am the sole exception and I can't help but think why this is happening to me.Why is it that I am still here, stuck at home with doldrums? Is it because there is something wrong with me? I really don't want to think about it this way but somehow, the thought just crosses my mind.

I have too much time in my hands and so far, I'm spending it doing all the things I missed out on when I was still in school like reading, watching TV, playing musical instruments and it has been fun. But I can't just be like this. I have to be productive and I am alarmed because less than a month from now, I will have to compete with the graduates of 2008 and it will be tougher than it is now because employers upon seeing my resume will have the notion that I am lazy or that something is wrong with me.

I don't want to be emo about it nor mope around. Moping will not solve anything. I guess I just don't like the fact that I know what I have to do, and I am already doing  it  but results are yet to be seen. I know I just have to be more patient and I just have to keep on trying. I just have to continue thinking that there will be better days.

Don't get me wrong, I like punk fashion and  even punk rock. But being a punk, I just can't be one forever.