Louie

Just celebrated my 27th year of existence.

Actually, I just stayed at home with my family. It has been raining hard since yesterday and according to news reports, 50 percent of Metro Manila is affected by floods. My friends who greeted me said today is a very memorable day because of the record rainfall in the National Capital Region. My family and I are safe and dry. I hope you are too.

I had a dream last night about a guy we shall call A. In my dream, A said he wanted to give me something. I told him I was busy and that I'll go check it when I'm done with what I was doing. He left something in my closet and disappeared afterwards. I checked my closet right after completing the task I was preoccupied with and found an envelop. Inside the envelop was a SIM card and a letter. I was asking myself why he would give me a SIM card. And then, I woke up. I never got to read what was written on the letter.

A is the guy who sang for me on my birthday two years ago.  He was one of the reasons why I looked forward to going to work when I was still assigned to one of the government agencies in Manila.

I don't get to see A a lot anymore but everytime I do, I feel nervous and happy at the same time. I always keep on telling myself that there is no point in liking him since he doesn't feel the same for me but all the talking-to-myself I've been doing is just not working.

When I checked my Facebook today, I saw his greeting on my wall and just couldn't help but smile. I still really like him despite my efforts to make myself believe otherwise. I am going to stop telling myself not to like him anymore since it is not working. My feelings will eventually go away, one day. I'll just have to wait for it.

The rain too will have to stop. I just have to wait for it as well.